By Sherryl Frauenglass
Like so many women, I didn’t realize my true value and worth until much later in life. From a very young age I was sensitive to energy and was often reprimanded for daydreaming. I thought that there was something wrong with me that needed fixing.
In my family, I took on the label of being the “good girl” and lived in the shadows of my parents and brother, who I perceived to be smarter, more beautiful, faster, more coordinated, and better than me in every way. I spent years looking to improve, change or alter what I labeled my many defects. I tried every diet, read the latest self-help books, tried psychotherapy, rebirthing therapy, and co-counseling therapy. I attended workshops to “open the heart”, “heal the inner child”, and “discover my true self”. I joined Jews for Jesus, became a Unitarian, studied Buddhism, was initiated into Transcendental Meditation at 14, and practiced yoga. I was always looking for the next teacher or guru who I was certain had the answer on how to fix me and make me whole.
Things finally started to turn around, when, after yet again giving my power away to a teacher/guru and a subsequent series of mystical experiences, I began to remember my connection to the God/Creation/Universe and to know myself deeply. I was finally starting to remember what I had always known as a child. As I opened up, I experienced a sense of total freedom and realized that I was a sovereign being, with my own unique gifts, and that the only guru I needed was ME! I realized that I was already whole and complete, that I didn’t need fixing and that I had a lot to offer the world.
When I look back at the earlier part of my life, I’m amazed that I never knew all of the amazing gifts and talents that I possessed back then. My “daydreaming” was actually how I connected to other dimensions of reality, and if there had been someone back then who encouraged me to explore this, I would have been aware of my intuitive gifts much sooner. Of course it was all a perfect unfolding and I now have a deeper appreciation of my diverse forms of awareness because they were so long in coming.
Once I stopped judging myself and comparing myself to others I was finally able to see the truth of who I was as a unique expression of creation. I moved from a place of fear, insecurity and self-judgment into taking my place as a leader, here to do my part to assist others in finding and sharing their True Voice.
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